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00:02 Apr 24 2018
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How do you permanently turn off your emotions? I felt so good the other day when I could feel nothing at all. How do I stay that way? How do I turn it all off?

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mortuusXCordis
18:03 May 09 2018

you cant, all you can do is learn to live with them.

01:30 Apr 19 2018
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Help: how do you stop text notifications from VR?

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birra
02:37 Apr 19 2018

https://www.vampirerave.com/phone.php

Turn off notifications by unchecking them here.

xTheCrookedCrossx
05:04 Apr 19 2018

....click delete profile....

01:13 Apr 18 2018
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I lost myself. I spent so much energy on other people, and making sure that they are okay, that I forgot to take care of me. I haven't quite been myself since October. A lot of things happened that fucked with my head and emotions. I get so caught up in the lives of others, that I lose sight of my goals and who I am. I get depressed and I lose my shit.

Tonight, for the first time in a very long time, I feel like I am close to being grounded again. It has been forever since I have felt okay. Today is a good day. Even though someone is currently still breaking my heart... it doesn't hurt as much... because I love myself more than that... than letting someone else break my spirit again.

I am shutting down. I will be emotionally unavailable. It feels good to not feel anything at all. I am going to go quietly, stop speaking as much... stop talking about myself as much. I am withdrawing from everyone around me who isn't good for me, and I am done being so open with others. All I do is leave myself vulnerable and open to manipulation.

So I am done. With everything. And it feels good.

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Dakotah
01:20 Apr 18 2018

This does not surprise me because long as I know you, you have one of the biggest hearts and you always put others before you. I am glad you are going to start putting yourself first. About time you do this. Keeping only GOOD people around you is something you should always do. True friends, ones your give and do not take, take take. I have been telling Lily this too, she has to start being good to herself. She is like you, always putting others before her and I told her it stops. She had to have a therapist tell her too what I have been telling her for weeks. Now once a day she has to do something just for herself and tell me what is was. Love you Sis. Always here too for you.

Dakotah
01:21 Apr 18 2018

That suppose to read: Ones who give and do not take, take, take.

VoiceCrowe
01:19 Apr 19 2018

Thank you my brother, this means so much to me. It is so hard when being a certain way becomes who you are. Empathy is all I have known, and it is hard to let go of that part of me. I am not sure how I am going to achieve being so distant from others, but I will make it happen. Not to say I won't still be empathetic, I just can't let it weigh on me anymore. I have started a daily personal journal, to keep myself accountable on this new path. Love you so much, and I am glad you are helping Lily see this through too. :)

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